.I really did something stupid when Shane and I had a brief misunderstanding. I answered my phone when my ex called, meanwhile we both promised eachother that we won't pick our phone whenever any of our ex calls. Shane didn't know about it but I had to tell her cos I didn't want to hide anything from her. But she didn't take it lightly, she has called off our relationship. She called me different names that really hurt me and she swore never to date me again. I know I really hurt her so I guess this is the end.





Thanks for visiting my blog.

.Am sorry for going MIA. Please accept my apologies.
 Shane just indirectly told me that we might not get married to eachother in the future. You might say am acting paranoid but please tell me what this means.
 I asked Shane why a butch/femme who claims to love her partner will suddenly fall out of love with her partner and fall in love with someone else. And she replied me saying that it could be because the butch/femme just loves her partner and things weren't working out well with them before but they have been fighting to keep the relationship going but when she finds someone who loves her and makes her happy, she will leave her partner for that person. And I told her that this is the same thing she use to say about our relationship (that she is trying too hard to keep the relationship going). She started explaining by saying that for now she loves me and want to spend the rest of her life with me but I should know that we will have obstacles in the future and we might not end up together because we will seperate. And its a risk worth taking.
 What's that! Losing me is a risk worth taking? Am so pissed right now.
  Thanks for visiting my blog. Have a lovely weekend.

.Am so sorry that I haven't been a good blogger. I have been really busy. Anyway, I have lots of gist for you guys.
Shane took me shopping! Am so happy. And the most romantic thing about this is that she wasn't financially buoyant. So when she came up with the idea of taking me shopping, I tried to advise her that she needed to save her money. But she disagreed,she was really bent on spoiling me. So on that day she went with me and we picked the clothes together. I really enjoyed shopping with her though we disagreed on my choice of clothes. I was so tired when we got back that I had to sleep off immediately, in her arms.
  Today when we were going out, I was telling Shane about the things my dad has achieved in life and she included my mum as one of my dad's achievement. But I disagreed with her and told her I don't think a woman can be included as one of a man's achievement. But she explained to me better and told me that a woman can be a man's achievement and I asked her how its even possible and she said
  " A beautiful woman who makes a man happy, complete and feel at home is an achievement to a man. And I know this, because you are an achievement to me" When she said this, I was dumbfounded and replied
 "Am going to visit my blog today". I mean, why won't I want to share something this sweet with you guys. I feel like am going to burst cos am just too happy. God please let this happiness not be short-lived, Amen.

.Shane and I went together to buy an electrical appliance that we needed at home. When we finished paying for it, the seller gave her the receipt to write down her name but she wrote my name instead and the best part was that she added her surname behind my name. At that moment I felt like a wife! I blushed so hard.
   When we got home, she set up the appliance. And after that she asked me to prepare dinner. I was too lazy to make anything which caused a little argument bt later ended when I agreed to cook. As I was preparing dinner, she told me that she had lost a friend. I got so pissed when I figured out she was referring to the same femme that made us have a fight last night. When the food was ready, I told her I didn't want to eat anymore so she got angry and decided not to eat too. I took a fork and started eating and I told her to join me but she said she didn't want to eat anymore and she asked me if that's not what I wanted.
  Immediately she said that, I could feel myself explode inside and I started talking anyhow. I brought up things from the past(which really wasn't a good thing). But I didn't care at that point in time because I wanted her to know the way I was feeling. And then she finally dropped the bomb. She broke up with me. Its not like its a new thing cos we normally break up and make up but I felt different about this one cos in my head I felt she broke up wit me because of the femme. Then she started talking about how she couldn't cope again with me bringing up the past but I didn't want to wait and listent to her. I stood up and left her alone in the room.
  She started sending me text messages immediately I left, telling me that am selfish and I always talk about how she hurt me and forget that I hurt her too. I sent her a reply telling her that I hate her. We continued exchanging hurtful messages until I went back to the room and asked her to tell me to my face that she didn't want me anymore. She couldn't say it at first but I persisted and she finally said it. I climbed d bed and started crying, she heard me crying so she turned to face me and cuddle me. I allowed her because I didn't have the strength to fight her anymore. We slept in that position.
   When we woke up this morning she told me she loves me and wants me to always make her happy. We talked about the whole issue and we came up with a perfect solution for the both of us. She also told me that I wasn't respectful(which am going to work on).We kissed and made up. Finally,Shane told me that she was wrong to have allowed the femme to become a close friend to her because am meant to be her best friend, fiancee and her everything. We agreed that she would always cuddle me no matter how angry we are at eachother. I stood up from the bed today vowing to always be respectful cos I don't want to make Shane feel I will never make a good wife.

...I woke up this morning still angry about what happened last night. Shane was chatting with a femme that she says is just a friend but the femme clearly didn't see it that way cos she was flirting with shane. This got me pissed and I told shane that I didn't like it. I was jealous and shane knew it. But she was just trying to cover up for the girl. I was really sad and I didn't feel like talking then. When we finished bathing and got back inside the room, she dressed up and left. I sent a text cos I wanted to know when she will get back.

Me: "when are you coming back. I will soon sleep off".

Shane: "Don't worry, I will knock when I get back".

And when she got back and climbed into bed, she just turned her back at me. I expected her to talk to me but she didn't . After sometime she turned and tried to cuddle me but I removed her hand. I was already too angry. She turned her back on me again and she didn't talk to me so I slept off. When I woke up at night, I picked up her phone and went through the chat. How could she tell shane that she wants to take a bath with her when she knew shane was in a serious relationship. Anyway, I loved shane's reply. Shane put her in her place by telling her that she can't have her talking like that to her because she's in a relationship. Shane should have told her that since she started flirting with her. I don't know why shane waited till I was angry before she knew she had to remind the femme that she was in a relationship. She woke up while I was chatting with her and I decided to talk to her about the situation but she didn't even give me a listening ear. She didn't want to listen to me talk and she didn't want to talk either. I can't believe that she is angry. Please am I not the one supposed to be angry here? Its not a rhetorical question, you guys have to answer me. Did I do something wrong?

.I just broke up wit my gf. I feel terrible. Anyway I have decided to give her a name. I chose shane. Yeah from L word. I love dat movie I can watch it everyday. Why am I evn giving her name? Pardon me am crazy in love wit her and I hope we get back togeda. Bt part of me is still considering dat cos tins will never be d same. I treated my ex(a butch) badly wen we broke up and bcs of dat shane sees me as a deceitful person and she said she can never love me anymore. Am a selfish Naughty Lady and I really need God's help. My life sucks ryt now. Things will better soon, its just a matter of time. I always thot we wld live togeda in peace bt now she is planning to find her own place so she won't have to stay wit me. I just pray dat now dat I have apologised to two of my ex, dat my future will be beautiful and perfect,Amen

.Like I said before, there are different types of lesbians. There is the
Butch lesbian- a lesbian who dresses like a guy and acts as d man in a lesbain relationship.
Stone-butch lesbian:- a butch lesbian who can never allow a fellow lesbian to touch her sexually. She derives her pleasures by dry humping on a fellow lesbian or rubbing her private part on her partner's body.
Femme lesbian:- this is d category I fall into. Femme lesbians just as d name imply is d female figure in d lesbian relationship. She puts herself down for her man to be on top of d relationship(including on d bed)
Baby lesbian:- these are d lesbians dat just stepped out of d closet. It doesn't matter if d person is old.
A Butch can date a femme. A femme can also date a femme. I love butch lesbians dats why am wit one . I just finished talking to my baby. Am going to see her very soon bt d sad part is, we won't be making love anytime soon. Its so not cool. Anyway we can cope, its nt as if we have tried staying for so long witout making love bt I know we can do it. We normally make love everyday(believe me,am nt exaggerating) sometimes 2-3 times a day. We enjoy making love. She loves touching me till I get to my peak and she will ride on me after I cum. I love it wen she cums cos she always thanks me wit all her heart and d look on her face and d way she breathes hard. Mehn dats a story for anoda day. Have to go to bed now. We told eachoda good nite few hours ago and as a submissive wife am meant to be in bed. And I always wnt to be a submissive to her. Ciao